just watched Crossroads and well got me feeling the same why i always do after i watch a chickflick. pretty much just sad and thinking of you. but instead of ranting on like i usually do i think this song sums it up pretty well.

okay , in the middle of writing that i looked outside , and although it was , well , pissing down outside , through the rain and grey , the sun was shining through , the rays shone straight onto the glass on our deck and reflected in my eyes. then , i saw my last blog and all this put together reminded me that i can't change the past but the future , that i can create. and that alone is amazing. i have the oppurtunity to do whatever i want with my life. whether it be become a doctor, physio, p.e teacher, radio broadcaster , or lawyer. i can't change what you did to me , but i can control how i deal with it. and im over missing you , over crying over you and feeling upset whenever im around a couple or see a photo of you. never again will you have that much control over my life. Corry Jack Bond , go suck a fat one.