I like how you share your food with me in general studies! I like how I laughed when I realised that it was your brother on the TV! Hahaha and I like that instead of a hoodie, that the rest of the school has you have a VEST for your football team! HAHAHA

i like your hugs and how excited we both get when we see each other. i like that we were never at that awkward friend stage. i like that you are really open to your like for brown boys and that we end up talking about hot boys most of the time. i like your skills when it comes to football and i LOVE that you know what... you want to do with your life and you are going for it. I really like that you are easy to talk to. :) I LOVE YOU!


Tess,
You light up my life. I like your beautiful smile, and i especially liked the way you wore your hair for footbal against palmy! It was caaaa-ute. I like that you always have the most hiarious things to say, and even if you don't you still manage to improve my day ten-fold! I like that you're very true-to-yourself ...and that the only changes you've made to yourself over the past few years that I've known you have been good ones!
I like that we've had a million good times together over the past few years with many many more to come! :) xxxxxxxx
 
WOLF! I like how you're real funny, and how you're better at all sport than me. I DONT like how you beat me in an arm wrestle! Oh, and of course, I like how I'm boys with your brother.
 
I like how you are really out going and sporty. I guessed that when i first met you. I like how you are real. I like that you have jungle fever haha. I like your lastname. I like how we had science together last year. :) x
 
i like how much you like soccer. i like how i've known you for a very long time. and i can reminecse with you, and only you. i think your very cute, and i dont mind that you swear a lot. i like how your always injured and when your sick and you sound like a man, i enjoy it. i like how you could beat me up. but you wuldn...'t. good times, all those times. just too many to even comment about. i hope you and winston reid get married. that would be mint :)

Tess. I like how much you love the All Whites...coz they are awesome!! I like that you have a good relationship with your brother. I like that we were in the same football team last year. I like that you used to go to pump. I like that you are very into your sports and are very competitive :)

i love my friends xD

i wish i was free of all this shit.

free of people telling me what to do. free to do what i want. when i want.

free to go anywhere with whoever.

free to have fun and not have to worry about anyone or anything.

free to folllow my dreams , with the chances to do so that everyone else seems to have.

free to just be me. with nobody judging me or comparing me to others.

free to be accepted by people for being myself and no one else.

just free i guess.

good weekend and shit weekend at the same time.

my brother... he's getting invited to the highlanders rugby academy next year. so he gets to follow his dream of playing professional rugby and go to uni cause the academy pays for it.
yes im super proud of him but i just can't be happy about it at the moment because now he acts like the freakin world revolves around him and doesn't give a shit about me. and the fact that he gets to follow his dream but there's no chance im ever going to get to follow mine makes me so fucking upset and pissed off that i want to cry whenever i think about it. and at the moment i can't stand him. which i absolutely hate because we are usually so close and have heaps of fun.

cousins and aunty... my cousins nick and sophie (who lives in wellington) and their mum (my aunty) came to stay this weekend. had heaps of funwith them and next weekend , as my mum's going up to auckland to stay with them , soph and i are going to go shopping for my ball dress and have an awesome day together on saturday.

school... well school is pretty much a fucking joke and is what's getting me down the most. we have an english assignment due tomorrow (worth 3 reading and writing credits) which i haven't done. i was off school for the first week of it and had heeeaaaaps of stuff on the second week and last week we could get it signed off. so im real disappointed and pissed off with myself for not doing it. and to make it worse my friend keepstxing me and stuff asking how my english is going which makes me want to tell her to just shut the fuck up cause we aren't all as amazing at english and motivated as she is.

work... im not enjoying it as much as i was. i don't know if this is just because im so exhausted and in a shit mood at the moment or what. but it makes me want to quit (which of course i won't)

but yeah , weekend was average. it was absolutely awesome to see my cousins and stuff though , love them so soo much xO

im just gonna have a little rant. enjoy.

on thursdays at lunch my football team go for runs, however for the last month and a bit i've been injured (my ankle) and although it's getting better i'm still not allowed to go for like a long-ish run on hard ground , especially without it strapped.

last week i played my first full game even though my physio only told me to play half at the most and yes , my ankle hurt like a bitch the next day. this apparently got my coach into thinking that i can go on runs even though after the game i told her i can't until i see the physio again (next week).

then today, i was with izzy just about to go to bagels and get lunch when i saw my coach and she was all where are you going ? so of course i just said i was going to get some food , i can't run yet cause my ankle isn't strapped and i haven't seen the physio this week. which i thought was completely reasonable as we have 2 games next week as well so i want to be all goods for those. however, apparently it wasn't reasonable at all. my coach says to me you know your not starting next week if you don't train (i.e come on the run) so i was all confused and just said um yeeaah ? and walked off.


now i'm upset because i don't think there's any reason why i shouldn't be starting and i think that my coach was way out of line telling me that i'm not. but of course i wasn't going to talk back to her cause she obviously was having none of it.


then i get to english and find out that evelyn didn't go on the run just cause she forgot to bring gear (didn't tell our coach) and no doubt she'll be starting next week. fucking joke.


that's my rant and imma go now.

thanks for being the bestest pillow in the universe .