good weekend and shit weekend at the same time.

my brother... he's getting invited to the highlanders rugby academy next year. so he gets to follow his dream of playing professional rugby and go to uni cause the academy pays for it.
yes im super proud of him but i just can't be happy about it at the moment because now he acts like the freakin world revolves around him and doesn't give a shit about me. and the fact that he gets to follow his dream but there's no chance im ever going to get to follow mine makes me so fucking upset and pissed off that i want to cry whenever i think about it. and at the moment i can't stand him. which i absolutely hate because we are usually so close and have heaps of fun.

cousins and aunty... my cousins nick and sophie (who lives in wellington) and their mum (my aunty) came to stay this weekend. had heaps of funwith them and next weekend , as my mum's going up to auckland to stay with them , soph and i are going to go shopping for my ball dress and have an awesome day together on saturday.

school... well school is pretty much a fucking joke and is what's getting me down the most. we have an english assignment due tomorrow (worth 3 reading and writing credits) which i haven't done. i was off school for the first week of it and had heeeaaaaps of stuff on the second week and last week we could get it signed off. so im real disappointed and pissed off with myself for not doing it. and to make it worse my friend keepstxing me and stuff asking how my english is going which makes me want to tell her to just shut the fuck up cause we aren't all as amazing at english and motivated as she is.

work... im not enjoying it as much as i was. i don't know if this is just because im so exhausted and in a shit mood at the moment or what. but it makes me want to quit (which of course i won't)

but yeah , weekend was average. it was absolutely awesome to see my cousins and stuff though , love them so soo much xO