i thought i hadn't kept my hopes up.
i thought i wasn't in this far.
but baby its like you threw me in the deep end
    without teaching me how to swim.

you know , ive never done that before. told a guy i liked them before i knew if they liked me back. now i feel like a fool. maybe you'll never know this but i thought you were him , the guy who would fall for me as i fell for him. you'll probably never know this but you are the first guy i've actually liked since that douchebag. liked in the 'storm of butterflies in my stomach whenever i see you' sort of way. in the 'the sound of your name makes my heart do a double take' sort of way. in the 'you make my life a shitload better' sort of way. and im not gonna lie it scared me more than you can imagine. the way you make me feel that is. but now , now i just feel stupid. i cant believe i honestly thought that something would actually happen between us. i guess crap things dont stop after the third like i thought they would. it seems like they're just gonna keep on coming but i dno if i could handle that.

11:11 make a wish

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