fuckin good friends ae. so much for going to town with me so i wouldn't have to party alone before we met other mates in town. saying they would then like 2O minutes before the bus comes being all "yeah maybe not ae."
now im lying in bed at 1am when i should be partying it up in town with mates who im now not going to see until next year... fuck. this. shit.
oh yeah and now i have no idea when im going to get to see him again. legit havent wanted to see someone this much in so fucking long. and now im at home in easstbourne the shithole thats so far away from everything feeling sorry for myself. all i want to do is be in town with my friends and spending time with him.
wow, i dont want to sound like its all about me or anything but i honestly just thought id be able to have ONE night where everything actually went to plan. but apparently not.
fuck this. like i actually want to see him so fucking bad right now , i  even contemplated asking my mum to drive me into town (like that's going to happen !).
i have honestly never felt like this about a guy so soon after meeting them. all i want is for him to come to my house right now and just chill all night talking and cuddling. that would legit be my idea of the best night ever right now.


fuck this.