dear santa

please. for christmas, i ask for two things only. ..

firstly. i just want to be able to let go of him. of what we had. because i hate feeling like this.

and second. there's this guy. he is absolutelygorgeous.

whenever i see him. he always smiles at me. and i get this feeling in my gut and chest.

like one day he'll mean so much to me, and i'll mean so much to him. i just want to meet him. to talk to him.

well actually. i want him to talk to me. because it's like i know he wants to. we're just both too shy. or something.

anyway, these are probably the hardest things to make happen.

(and yes, i know santa isn't actually real)

but i just thought, since it's christmas time and all, the i'd wish for the two things that would mean the most to me.

[well, that's apart from my family being happy, healthy etc...]