to the guy who i messed around when my broken heart was just new..

im sorry. i know those two words mean nothing coming from me now but, it's true. i wish i could take it all back and we could just be friends again.
i want you to know that i'm always here if you ever change your mind. and ,
i couldn't do it then , but if you ever want to hear it i think i'm strong enough to explain to you how much he hurt me. if you just let me explain then maybe you'll understand why i fucked up so bad. i never in a million years would want to hurt you. but, i did and i can't take that back. all i can do is just make sure you know that i'm here. and i always will be. take your time. and when you're ready. if you ever are. i'll be here with open arms and an open heart. ready to start our friendship again. just; don't delete my number because, hopefully. one day. you'll need it.


p.s i know that you will probably ever read this but i needed to get it outta me. i don't really feel like i have anyone to tell who would really listen to me and try to understand my feelings at the moment. so here it is. what i'm feeling. not all of it but the outline. and, one day maybe i'll get up enough courage to actually tell you these things in person. i hope i do. but for now. this is it.