when i think that the last time i posted was only a month & a bit ago it freaks me out.
so so much has happened in that time. its a bit scary.

February 22 was just a normal day. well maybe a bit better than normal cause i had talked to 'this guy' on the phone the night before =P .. i was in stats, as usual using the period to hang out with friends and, occasionally do the work. when with maybe 5 minutes to go my friend told me there had been a massive earthquake in Christchurch. yes it was only 4.1 magnitude but when a quake of that magnitude is only 5km deep it can and will cause devestation. so many emotions overcame me in those next 5 minutes , shock,disbelief,denial,questioning,fear. and finally when it sunk in,sadness. the thought of having to finish the school day and go to dragon boating without knowing whether or not my family and a very good friend of mine were okay seemed incomprehensible. i was overcome with this need to help, but i knew that all i could do was give money and show my support, other than that there was nothing i could do. i wasnt a trained professional, just another high school student feeling utterly helpless. so close yet so far away, that night it felt like i was watching the news from a different country. it just couldn't be new zealand that this disaster had struck. aotearoa, my home, so little, so helpless, yet so strong, so powerful, and so so amazing. tears fell more than once that night watching the news. with relief when finding out everyone i knew was okay, and when realising the amounts of people trapped under the tonnes of rubble being shown on the tv. it was so surreal. this sort of stuff isnt supposed to happen to us. to little nz , chillin at the bottom of the pacific ocean. but on 22/2/11 'this sort of stuff' did happen. and it affected & touched every last person in 'little nz' in one way or another. everybody knows somebody or knows somebody who knows somebody who was in christchurch for that terrifying earthquake. its what rhys darby likes to call "2 degrees of seperation". still, 2 weeks later i cant seem to come to terms with the immense devestation in chch, even after hearing some people's stories first hand, it still feels so surreal to me. im doing my best to do whatever i can to help christchurch in the wake of this event but really , when you've given money and shown your support what more is there other than hope ?            kia kaha christchurch